Monday, January 24, 2005
I had been mistaken as a Malay once again...This was already the 8th time tat ppl assumed i was a Malay.
I find this rather funny. Isn't it an irony tat no matter how hard i look in front of my mirror, i dun think i look like a malay?
Well, i didn't really mind when ppl commented, "Are you a Malay?". So after so many "misunderstanding", i had come to a point to accept the fact tat maybe i do really look like a Malay. What's the big deal anyway? haha
Beside, i had face situation even worst than this. Many ppl actually thought i was a lower secondary school student. I rememebered once when i was having a check-up at Institute of Heath, the nurse on duty actually thought i was a primary school student and made me line up in the "kid" section. I was seconadry 3 then.
Hmm..perharps i should be glad. At least I can afford to "act cute" without making other feel disgusted. Hahahahahaha. Nah.i'm just kidding! ;)
6:52 PM
Saturday, January 22, 2005
Sometimes I just dun understand what some people are thinking.
Yesterday, I went to Guangyin Temple with my parents and saw this poor man sitting at a corner. A sign which written-I had lost both of my legs. Pls donate- in chinese, was place in front of him and his lower body was covered by a blanklet. My mother took pitied of that man and gave him a 10 dollar note. Even though, it was not eactly a hugh sum of money, the 10 dollar would ensure the poor chap a meal. We walked away, thinking that we had done a good deed.
But, we were wrong.
We were about to leave the temple when it started raining. To my astonishment, i saw the so called-without legs man actually stood up, packed his belongings and started RUNNING to the nearest building to seek shelter! Can you believe it?? All of us were dumbstruck...
Maybe that man has his reason to cheat. Or maybe he is just in need of money. I dun noe. But since he is normal with 2 legs n 2 hands. Shouldn't he make use of dem?
It's sad to really say.....some people just take singaporean's generosity for granted.
6:53 PM
Thursday, January 20, 2005
Hmm..finally tomorrow is a holiday! After nearly 3 weeks in J/C, i realised time really flies. In about a month time, we will be receiving our long- waiting O level result....Anyway, my GP teacher just confirmed it. She mentioned during lesson time that the result would be out in week 8.haha Right now, i'm still pondering whether to attend J/C lesson tat day. Bet i wouldn't have the mood to attend any tutorials or lectures.(Serious) Haha
By the way, did i mention i have become YA(Young adults) of Girl Guides? All guide sisters outta-Pls dun get a heart attack. I know you guys will be surprise..lol. Who will expect someone like me to continue in the guiding world..
But, no matter what, i still look forward for the weekly training! Couldn't wait to see those cute sec 1 girls..wahahahaha
8:05 PM
Sunday, January 16, 2005
Oh my god. You guys wouldn't believe this. I had entered the male toilet earlier on!! It was so damn embarrassing!
Just picture this. A teengae girl walking into a washroom with a middle-age man unzipping his pant at a corner. For goodness sake, tat girl was me...
I couldnt describe my feelin then. I was momentarily stunned. Anyway, when came upon such situation, we should quickly apologised and "escaped" the scene. But i did not respond in such way. In fact i stood starin at him for a while(I hope my mouth wasn't gaping wide) without sayin a single word. Why am i such an idoit???
Of course, i left the toilet anyhow n rushed to join my family outside. Unsurprisingly, my own kins laughed and teased, thinking my "plight" was hilarious, even my dad. I had now unwillingly become a joke. What a day indeed!
6:50 PM
Friday, January 14, 2005
Have you guys read the story-Five people you met in heaven by Mitch Albom? This was already the 5th time i had finish reading the book and surprisingly i dun find it boring.
I guess i'm fascinated by the "heaven" in the story. lol. Ok, since childhood, i was told about heaven n hell. If we do commit any bad things in life, we will have to face 18 levels of punishment. On the other hand, should we do anything great, we will be send to heaven where there is peace. An interesting concept indeed...
Call me unrealistic or stupid, till now i still do believe in this myth. Unfortunately it does not prevent me from committing mistakes like telling lies...hehe
wat abt u?
8:18 PM
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
I realise i'm definitely not thrifty. Why? Just withdraw 300 bunks from my acount earlier on n i had already spent 100 dollars..lol There goes my holiday paycheck. I wonder why is it always so easy to spend ur money but so damn difficult to earn them.
Anyway, i suppose i'm in an exceptionally good mood today since i'm suddenly 300 dollars richer. BUT, i can predict by the end of this week, i would be back to square one-Broke.
Sometimes, i do wish i'm working instead of studying in J/c. I would then have the extra pocket money. However, my J/C life is so far so good and my previous job experience as the 7-eleven sales promoter was too"frightening" to describe, i still remained as a student in the end.
Right now, i had came up with this plan. To earn money while i'm studying. Just imagaine, we would be pay maybe $2.50 for every hour we spent in school. Wouldn't it be great? Dream on..i knew..hehe
6:00 PM
Sunday, January 09, 2005
I had a nightmare last night which seem so real. I dream of my mother dying.
It was so frightening and i was freak out totally. I remembered myself crying so hard in my dream that when i awake, there were real tears on my face. My heart was still beatin wildly then. I just coulnt imagaine my mother leaving me..
Anyhow, the first thing i did in the morning was to recount my dream to my brother. I was told tat should one reveal his/her dream, the dream would not be real. I really hope this was true..
5:37 PM
Saturday, January 08, 2005
Our 1 week orientation's finally over...If you guys from Gemini managed to read this, i would really want to thank you ppls sincerely.
Thank you Shi Min for being my first friend in Innova, Thank you Hui fang and Shabila for brightening up my days with your chats and laughters
Thank you Su Hui and Ellie who not only become my team mates but also friends.
Thank you the guy gang-Guo Hui, Cheng Siong, Deepan, Bo Hong, Alvin, Yixing, Woon Han, Puden and Lit Sheng who always give support to the girls. I'm impressed with all ur different characters...haha
Lastly, i would like to thank Mr yip-our Orientation group faciliator. Without him, there would be no Gemini in the first place.
I had enjoyed myself totally during the orientation. Really glad that you guys had entered part of my life. Hope we will maintain our friendship even in the future! Best of luck Gemini peeps!:)
1:00 AM
Thursday, January 06, 2005
There's hardly anyone on earth who hasn't commit any mistakes in their life. Be it minor or major. Afterall, we are not born to be perfect.
Well, just like many other people, i, too, had committed quite a no. of mistakes. Although i'm not exactly proud to admit this, there's no reason for me to cover up this fact either. In fact, i was regretful.
There was time when i wrote incorrect answers on my examination papers; misunderstood my best mates and started a cold war with her; Lied to my parents etc etc. They were all my previous mistakes.
Thankfully, i managed to learn my lesson at the end of it. At least, i learnt to be more careful when answering questions for papers in the future; clear any misunderstanding with my friends before i lose my cool and finally, not to lie to my parents anymore...
That's life isn't? If there's no mistakes, would we ever learnt and turn over a new leaf? Would we experience the pain of punisment? And most importantly, would we appreciate life better? But , i must make clear the point- should we be given a chance to ammend our mistakes, do treasure them carefully. Let's not commit the same mistakes over and over again. It's not wise at all.
7:16 PM
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
Sometimes, have you ever wish that u can overcome your fear and do something which are totally outrageous?
My secondary school principal often mentioned- Step out of our comfort zone and into the courage zone. A realistic advise indeed but is it really tat simple? I doubt so.
During my 3 months Junior college provision orientation, for example, I experienced fear of studying in a new environment as well as meeting unfamiliar and new faces. You may be laughing right now, thinking how on earth should i be fearful. But that was exactly how i felt that day.
Under those circumstances, i could choose to run away from reality by remaining afraid and shy. I could refuse to take the initative in making new friends and become a loner as a result. But i didn't. Why? Because i managed to take a step in overcoming my fear.
I suppose in life, we are destined to face many challenges and obstacles. Anyway, It is through those situations that we learn to grow and become mature. So if we allow our own fear to stop us from achievin one goal, life would not be neither challenging nor meaningful at all.
We must dare to take risks and have the guts to say "yes" to difficult tasks. Afterall, i'm sure all of us would feel great sense of satisfaction should we really accomplised our mission.
I must admit that i'm not a daring person and there is definitely a long way for me to become someone who really dares to risk.But i'm still hopeful. I guess as long as we believe in ourselves and be confident of who we are, i'm sure overcoming our own fear is nothing difficult at all. Really.
10:03 PM
Sunday, January 02, 2005
Do you have dreams?
As a child, my dreams changes. There was a time when i dream of becomin a teacher and there was once when i dream of becoming a doctor. I even wish to be a lawyer.As a whole, i just wish to become a successful person.
Sometimes, we watched on TV featuring all these successful people. They told us about their challenges and how they overcame their obstacles. As a result, we are being inspired and admired their actions.
But while we are celebrating the success of these people, have we thought of these group of ordinary people who are also contributing to singapore's economy? Their only difference-They earn a lower income each year. These group of people consists of sweepers, cleaners, construction workers etc. They are what we called blue-collared workers.
Shouldnt these people deserved some recognition for their hard work?
When i was working as a sales promoter at 7-11, i came to know this India lady toilet cleaner at Centrepoint. She told me about many things and one include her dreams. She just wish to raise her 3 children until they grow up and have their own careers. It may sounds easy but did i mention that her husband had abandoned the family when she had their first child? Or did i mentioned that her first son is now in jail while the other 2 sons are still schoolin? Can you now then understand why i admired this lady in the first place? In fact, i think she inspired me more than those successful people featured on TV.
In life, we too, are bound to experience different situations and at each situation, we are bound to have a different dream. A sick person would just wish he/she is alive for another day while a poor may dream of becoming wealthy one day. For those victims who are affected by the tidal waves? I'm sure they just wish no such disaster wld ever occur again.
What abt my dream? Everyday would be a better day i guess.....
7:35 PM
Saturday, January 01, 2005
Another year had went by....
How time really flies..
How i wish i can fully control time.
Just picture this scenario. You were down with a terminal disease and were given 1 year; 1 month; 1 week; 1 day; 1 hour; 1 min or just 1 sec to live. How will u spend it meaningfully?
I have often thought abt this situation and most of the time, i couldnt find an answer. I'm not sure whether will i have the courage to face the problem.
I fear of death and i fear the moment when my eyes refused to open again. Just thinking of it would makes my hair stands.
But, i must die anyway. It's a human cyle. We were born in to world to live, to experience, to sacrific, to learnt and to dominate. Once the journey came to an end, we must leave and allow the next generation to take over.
Time shows no mercy. Every minutes and every second counts. We must make the best out of our time before all was too late. Unexpected things happen all the time. I may be typing this blog now but the next moment, i may just leave this world. We really shouldnt just leave everything at the last moment.
As the words saying-Fight against time. We must not let time control our fate. Didnt you guys find it meaningless to do the same routine each day. [The alarm bell rings, brush your teeth, shower, went to sch, lessons time, sch dismissal, homeworks, TV and sleep] This goes the same for the next day. We are just like living machine.But what can we do? We are bein "set" to do those things. Just imagaine if you were to continue this simple routine for the rest of ur life, will u be happy? Will u then find satisfaction in life? I don't think so.
Maybe there are really certain things which we cannot change but we can make a slight difference to it. Wat abt sacrifying our TV time doing volunteerin work? Or what abt sacrifying a little of our sleepin time and try to communicate with other people like our family members. We can even make full use of our lesson time by stayin attentive and focus so tat we really learnt something at the end of the day.
Finally, Do u get the picture? Time is precious and we cannot afford to "waste" it away. Let's seriously get on with Life!!!