Friday, December 31, 2004
Human emotions. A very complicated term.
Everyday, i experienced different form of emotions-happiness, sadness, disappointment, amazement...
Have you guys ever tried to control your emotions then?
I did and most of the time i failed.
It was easy to say than done. There was a time when my grandmother passed away. The atmosphere at the funeral was tense. We sat silent most of the time and not a single person cried-Our grandmother wanted us to be strong(Tat's wat my parents said.) However, nobody could withheld our tears when we saw our grandmother's dead body in the end even young children like us. Till now, i still feel a sense of emptiness whenever i think of her. Perharps, i really miss my grandmother alot.
Then, there was moments when i experience buildin anger. I tried to keep cool but anyhow, i just "exploded" and In the end, i would often felt embarrassed or regretful abt my sudden outburst of temper.
I hated the most when i felt lost and confused. Everything just seemed to turn away from you. You have no aim, no direction and life just seem so meaningless. The worst part of it was tat nobody could understand ur emotions and there was no one to lend u a listening ear.
I changes as i grew older. The way i deal with my emotions changes as well. Right now, i allow myself to be emotional. Afterall, i'm also a human.I allow myself to cry when watching drama series without thinkin i'm silly and i allow myself to laugh when met with awkward occurances. In fact, i even laughed at myself in front of the mirror daily to cheer up my day. You can try this as well. It really works! haha
